BLOG IS ON HIATUS. I'LL BE BACK AFTER MY O'LEVEL EXAM. I AM SERIOUZ ABOT THAT. I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND VERY WELL.TQ *Kirai2 to people who know what i mean* HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA SEE YA!!!

musics to share

m addicted to this women!! i ♥ her voice! i love her songs! she's partly indonesian who grew up in Australia. here are my top 4 fav songs from her! feel free to download!

Running Back

been waiting

Because

Burn

* click the links to download~:)

The So-called Rule

i was on MSN with one of my friend n 2 other who joined on the group chat. we were actualy talking about something that made her sooo effin jealouss!! well, m not gonna discuss her problem here. but the main subject of her problem was she still have feelings towards this specific guy*name should not be mentioned*. so she asked me this,

"its possible kan to have feelings for both guys at the same time, just like i love crunchie but i love picnic too"

i knowww!! she sounds crazy! hahahaha! so this time, m gonna discuss bout this statement. for what i know, It's not a crime or a felony to have feelings to both guys. cause they're aren't really officially together. BUT!!! i told her, that "u must have one person that u like most" cause u cant take both guys is it? atu tamak! like she said! hahahaha! so then she asked me why?? i told her, that i don't know. it's just the rules! I don't know what rule and inda ku tau dari mana luah nya!. but it is what it is. no one is going to change SUCH RULE. seriously, there is no rule about this thing. but it is in the primary knowledge that we cant like both guys equally. there must be one that we might like most. then she was telling me,"you're talking about rules? that is like "he's just not that into you"." and i was like, I KNOW RIGHTTTTTT!! but it's true tho. we might not know the rules. but our brain just snap out the rules! it's easy to say MOVE ON. but some people find it hard to move on. well, we just have to take it slowly. okay.. now cerita ku tunggang tebalik. hahahah!! nahh~m just tired of being hyper dari tady on plurk and also MSN-ing with Amal n the other girls. and it's saturday night. when i was chatting with the girls, we were wondering, why aren't we going out? like kami nie discuss arah MSN why not dapan2?. memang tunggang tebalik ceta kami ahh!! hahahahah~ well, back to the So Called RULES. some people asked me*mcm love doctor tah pulang rasa ku* how to make your relationships better. well, i dont know u people lah. but from my relationship, i just mengalah. u know, i dont wana be soooo sensitive anymore. it's enough that we keep on arguing almost every week? so what i did was, i just let him do his thing. i dont marah him as much i used to. cause the more we marah, the more they will do it. n the more we marah, the more they try to run away from us spaya nda kana marah. so all i did is, just forgive him for whatever he does. dont control him/her that much. insyallah it'll be better. cause i know it'd work on mine. seriously, i just keep my feelings to myself. n m not gonna let it out until he crosses the line. eyh apa kan aku blog pasal anie. talur banarr.. ahahah!! mana baby ku nie kan? jadi nda dating nie??? bah2, m off for now. maybe later or tomorrow. Have a nice saturday/sunday Night!! :)


p.s/feedbacks on the cBox are welcomed~:)

To people who talk shits on my blog!

First thing first i would like to thank all readers for being so kind to view my blog. My tendency to post this is because i saw this GUY/WOMEN who wrote on my cBox about what i typed on my previous post about death. WHAT THE EFF MAN??? OKAY! u dont have to correct me A-HOLE! It's My Blog n i can talk Shit whenever i want to!u think u're so perfect do u?? if u dont feel like reading it, or u think my blog is LAME, Please feel Free to LEAVE!! i Don't care if u Spam me or what so ever crap u want to do! Don't accuse people f u don't know me! kafir or islam? hello!!!! Inda pandai membaca kali ia anie. buta pakah! i say life is such an ASS. but it doesnt point out to be your Life!! DUHHH!!!! m not talking bout u! perasan kan mati jua kau! mihirr!! My OWN ASS U SAY?? wahh!! my ass lawa kali ah! mengapa kau ah! Stop saying shit to my blog f u really dont know who i am! i am a free-blogger! i have the right to type Bullcrap in this blog. i have daily readers! not only u! m not here to entertain u only! i have thousands of readers who want to hear me and my opinions Out! n did i say on my previous post that it is about ur life which is being such an ass? did i really say life can be such an ass to all of u?? did i really say or pin-point that it is really u?? baie kali! sasak jua ku nie! seriously ah! f u really dont want to read my blog, please leave lah. no one is forcing u to read my blog. but i really love people like u or so called HATERS! once u do this, it's gonna be continuously. and then u're gonna tell ur friends about this and then ur friends will tell their friends. and then U, Ur Friends and Ur friend's Friends IS SOOOOOOO gonaa make Me EFFIN FAMOUS!!!! GO On and live ur life, cause i dont fucking Care what u're gonna say after this. u just lost your respect, and now u're seeking for attention?? BULLOCKSSS!!!! i know u're not from here. so what?? ada ku nyuruh kau masuk ke mari kan?? nada kan?? sibuk sja kau! Just bear this in mind.

THIS IS MY BLOG AND I CAN TALK SHIT WHENEVER I WANT TO! Boo That Biatch!

sorry to the rest of the people who are reading this. m so pissed sal urg anie. n aku tau bulan puasa. awuu kurang pahala ku. but at least m letting out what m feeling right now! tu urg ah! sakit ati ia kan aku, suka aku kali hahahahahahah!!

Baby chevs Finishing Airbrush! Before n after~;D

baby chev's fnishing airbrush*click on the picture for full view*. a picture of before and after. took me 1 hour to edit this since all the sizes are big n made my laptop lagging~;D i need a hard diskkkk!!!! anyways,

Selamat menyambut bulan puasa to all muslims where ever u guys are. G'nighttt!!

Random Post

aku kan show off full MSN skin ku since banyak people wondering n iski kan lyat!*names will not be mentioned* sorry cinta nis,pinjam ur window~:p n picture changed due to stalkers. awu! boyfriend ku footballer! kenapa?? Jeles?? wuuuuu~;D *click for full view*

This 2 mamasitas' cheered me up! love u kamu! they did this picture for me since i loveeeeeeeeee lady gaga! i mean, lady gagap! :p

When Sickness meets Death

Evening people. it's raining Heavily in KB plus m feeling kindda emo-ish. have u ever thought of how your death might looked like. have u ever imagine like for example, you've been hit by a car n suddenly u're just lying over there waiting for your very last breath? do ever think of,when u're lying there, will u be alive again or just stay there n close ur eyes? are u going to look at yourself dying or just stay in ur body till the light comes? this mind boggling questions keeps on spinning in my mind. i thought of this since i dont know,before today? but today i had the chance to like "cerita" with amal bout this. since i have a friend*name should not be mentioned* who is capable to live only 5 years from now due to some Family sickness that he/she is having now. when my friend told me that he/she is going to live for only 5 years, my eyes really bust in tears. he/she even say,"maybe it's not 5 years,maybe it's more or maybe less. m not the one to decide but f it happens,happens lah. f nda, i would be thankful" this made me think about the death questions that i was mumbling about.

i am a teenage girl with a "so called CHRONIC disease." like people like to say,it's a number 1 murderer on earth. i was thinking, If i die today,what will happen?? will people cry for me?laugh for me? miss me? i know someone will~i imagine one day m on my death bed, mum trying to call me boyfriend to come over. n by the time he's on his way,i took my last breath without him. that's gonna be so fucked up! i dont even have the chance to tell him,that i love him. i dont even have the chance to see him. i dont even have the chance to hold him. what about my friends? what about my cintas which is far away from me? i know my friends will cry for me. n i know amal n dolly will. what about the rest? my cintas n my friends who care about me all this years? what about my cousins? what about my MUM n DAD?? i know life is such an ass. or some of u might say,it's cruel. but then,f it really happens, u have to accept the fact no matter what happen. tho u tell u're love ones, that u will go before them n they deny it n told u that they're the one who's going first,that's bullcrap. everything happen unexpectedly.

i ever thought of when i die, i will be on top of the world,looking at myself being prayed n all. watching my family n cousins crying for me. friends n enemies come n visit. n the love of my life,standing there crying his heart out for me. it's going to be a sad ending and all. but whatever happen, there's a slight story behind it. maybe it's for the best. okay now m talking crap. nda bah, i am feeling emo bahh~ maybe this sickness u can use as an advantage. but that is so wrong. i hate when people use my sickness as an advantage. seriously,like everything i wana do n someone comes n cuts the line n say,"it's okay wah. she's a diabetic" c'mon lah~i dont want to remind myself m a diabetic. it's enough that m having it. m trying my best to live as normal as possible. u might see me happy outside, but the actual fact is that, i am sad inside. yes! i am sad! i may look healthy, but m not. m not trying to show that i am sick. m not trying to seek any attention. m not trying to seek for any symphaty. m trying to live as normal as u guys. lately. i mean these few days, i've been so quite. i got so much things on my mind. i think even my mum realized it jua. *sigh* m out of words udah n my eyes is full of tears.

to all u friends,family n haters, sorry for all the rudeness or anything yg menyinggung perasaan kamu. i know it's just words, but it might end up to something good. to my baby, m sorry f me buat u marah n all. maybe not now,maybe before or later, i didn't mean anything bad. &&, i miss u so much n i wana see u~:( hope to see u thursday on webbie. cause m missing u badly right now.G'night!

I acceidentally burnt my hand~:(

Happy sunday kamu~;D *suka nie c bella sal text anie kuning* anu bahh! my hand sakittt!!!!*manja jua eyh* okay to be honest,m not those Chores type of people. like i gv any Shit. i dont do house chores for sure! but still i cook delish meals!*atu yg mahal tu nah* hahaha~ i mean i cook my own recipe . n even recipe urg ku tambah2 spaya nyaman*si tambah* so yeah. i was at the kitchen lapas beinject kan n i was scavanging around the house cari makan. so i wanted to eat meat, but then aunty didnt cook any meat today so i've decided to cook the burger patty n add a lil bit of my own taste. so yeah i heat up the oil n made some frech toast as i wait for the meat to unfroze. so yeah lapas buat the french toast the oil mcm mikin dikit, so i took the butter. when i simpan the butter to the pan,mcm it slips down laju from the spatula to the oil n the oil spilled on my wrist! i swore, "Oh FCUK!!!"*sorry, but i love to curse! hahaha* i didnt wash it at once,i just carry on cooking and add up my recipe to it. till i finished cooking it then i washed my hand n it was darnnn reddd!!! i ate my lunch n complain to mummy. mummy asked me to put colgate on n i did. sajuk pulang but nada rasa ahh!! and here i am in my room blogging with my burnt left wrist. :( told my baby bout this,nyaman ia ckp nanti ia dengani masak. ia jua tu karang nda ingau kan nulong. hahahahah! i dont have picture of my burnt wrist. payah ku mengambar, inda jua nampak! talur!

this was taken saturday morning. me baby bangun kan me ;D Love u baby♥

woke up with teary eyes

i slept around 11 n now m awake! it's 12.19am 8th of august. morning everyone! i woke up with tears in my eyes. i dream of something that made me cry in my sleep n i was hoping this dream comes true. okay, i was at this beach, seems familiar but not. looks like jubli park kb but on 2nd thought it looks like pantai seri kenangan. i guess me and my baby was having a fight that i cried in my dream too. i went to the place where i took pictures with baby cannon*wow! camera pun ikut mimpi* n then i settle down sitting near to the shore crying of course. then someone came along and hugged me from the back. and a soft voice coming from his mouth saying, " Everything is going to be alright syg. i love u and i'm sorry " and i woke up with teary eyes till now. i told cinta nisnis bout this. and she asked me,"Siapa someone atu? si fish kah?" and i told her that it was DEFINITELY him. cause the voice i heard is His~Baby, I missed u :( hope to see u soon baby.

Our first picture taken on the 22nd february at padang kebajikan BSB after 1 plus month of webcam n knowing each other♥

just for updates~

Kamuuu!! aku suka COKE ZERO♥ Hahahah!! Panat!